Every day that goes by is another day I lose a friend. Being alone and dying alone appears to be my destiny. No one takes the time to understand me and no one takes the time to just hear me out.
Being alone is the only way to go. This way no one hurts me and I don’t hurt anyone. Maybe I will just leave this earth to make everyone happy. This way no one has to ever hear, deal with, or see me again. Everyone’s’ lives will be better without me and they will be happier once I am gone.
Slowly, I am building the courage to go. I just hope that all this pain goes away soon. I hope I never have to deal with any more suffering.
I give up on life and happiness.
-AW